I am not a risk taker.
I do not relish in change. I fear what others will say about me and I always follow the societal norm.
Life is Meant to be Loved and Lived.
I am 100% certain that people are meant to run with life, not be run over by it. We are meant to laugh, learn, explore, and enjoy life. We should be doing things that spark our interests regardless of what other people have to say about it. Unfortunately, many fall prey to the daily grind and tend to lose sight of who they truly are deep down inside.
Someone once asked me, “What do you like to do for fun?” That’s an easy enough question I suppose. Everyone has things they delight in when the time clock has been punched, the children are asleep, or when they are all alone. But at that moment in time I struggled to know what I really liked to do. Every day is essentially the same for me: I get up at 6 a.m., battle the rest of the city to make it to work by 7 a.m. just as they are, work in an office doing menial paperwork for a small amount of pay, clock out and battle that same city I did this morning to get home, then proceed to the gym, again rush home to shower myself and my child, make dinner, eat, put said child to bed, and then plop on the couch at 10 p.m. wondering where the day had gone. Do I stay up and read that book I have been telling myself for months to read? Do I catch up on my favorite sitcom? Maybe…wait. I am exhausted, and honestly, what do I even like to do? Never mind, I will think of something I like to do another day because right now, I am just plain tired. Then it’s off to bed to do it all over again tomorrow. I say yuck to that!
This Can’t Be All There Is.
I came across the website of Tom Ewer a couple of months back. I do not remember the details. In fact, I am not even sure why I would even come close to encountering a blog about blogging, or writing, or leaving work behind, because those thoughts never crossed my mind. But somehow it was in the cards for me and I was intrigued. I began reading all of the information like a maniac! I became excited at the thought of making extra money or even Gasp! leaving my regular job and pursuing something I would love, have control over, and make good money doing.
Will This Even Work?
I am not sure yet what my niche will be, what my expertise can be labeled as, or whether I will pursue writing full time (although that would be a dream come true!). I question myself as many others before me surely have. Yet, I know myself. I know that I am hard working go-getter with a dream to enjoy the one life that has been given to me. I want to spend time with my husband, with my child, with the world! I do not want to be stuck in a merry-go-round life where I cannot even answer the question “What do you like to do for fun?”
The truth is, it does not matter what I like to do for fun if there is no chance of actually fulfilling those activities on a daily basis. This is my chance to reconnect with the true me, even though by doing so I am taking a huge chance. Remember, I am not one to take risks, I do not relish in change, I worry about what others will say when they find out I want to do this. Yet, no one gets anywhere in life without taking chances. So I will tell myself “Just Push Publish”. What is the worst that can happen?
Have you ever taken a big risk or made a major change? I would love to hear your stories and how you overcame that uncertainty.